Did you ever really get into something and think I've totally got this? and then for some reason you suddenly fall off of whatever wagon you were on for a day or two and just never got back on? Hahaha... that's me, especially if I'm the only one holding myself accountable for something.. something like exercise and diet...and especially if it involves a treadmill.
So this time I did something that someone else will hold me accountable for.. I joined Fit Body Boot Camp and if I don't show up it will not go unnoticed..and I need that. I also apparently really really really need the exercise because my everything hurts and I have muscles where I didn't know I had muscles... haha... my biggest wish in the world right now is for a cold toilet seat that I can live on because my ass hurts so much from stupid donkey kicks.. I just keep telling myself it's worth it...it's worth it...it's worth it... hahaha! Summer is fast approaching and I have 40 lbs to lose instead of the 30 I had at the beginning of last summer... go figure.. getting older really sucks sometimes!
I joined a gym last fall right after Madilyn was going to miraculously be hugely successful in school and I was going to have free time (note that is totally and completely dripping with sarcasm..:) but I didn't meet anyone because nobody was friendly, the trainer acted like I was simply annoying her when I asked her to actually show me how to do the exercises she chose for me (I haven't been to a gym in 15 or 20 years... seriously, if I had to ask for workout guidance I obviously don't know what I'm doing..) and absolutely nobody cared if I was there or not... not quite the encouragement I was looking for.
On a different note WE HAVE RESPITE CARE NOW!! I am a little excited about that.. can you tell?? I'm actually going out this weekend with my hubby and his mom and sister while they are in town visiting. We're actually going out ... without any children... totally foreign concept for me and I'm over the moon excited! Hopefully my ass won't hurt quite this much... hahaha
We also have a new puppy, Goose. Goose is Madilyn's dog, once all of his training is done he'll be a certified service dog for her. So far it's been an absolute blessing having him here, he's so calming for her, it's amazing to watch. It will also get me up and moving more because he needs to be walked and has to go outside pretty much hourly during the day for potty training... at times it's very painful getting up and moving but Goose doesn't seem to care.... I just keep telling myself one step at a time... I didn't get this way overnight and I'm not going to fix it overnight... one step at a time..
