the struggle is real.....

She's currently in the living room having a holy hell fit and throwing stuff.... all because I turned the TV off in the living room and turned the radio on.  She doesn't care that Mickey Mouse is on the TV in her playroom...she wants both, all the time.  This is typically when she'd be scratching, pinching and throwing stuff at me because it would get her her way so she would stop.  Instead that baby gates have been dusted off and installed and I'm sitting at my dining room table watching, video recording the fit on my phone, drinking coffee and eating sugar free cherry jello.. haha... mom for the win!!

With Madilyn feeling so much better now (most of the time) we have fully acknowledged and realized that we have created an absolute beast (that's being polite).  We have spent so much time giving her whatever she wanted because either she was never supposed to be able to do it to start with or it was the only way to get her to stop some other behavior......  well, now we have the long journey of fixing it.  I tend to post the funny stuff on Facebook or the progress but not the tantrums.  Her tantrums (the full blown ones are relatively new) are of epic proportion.  Add to it the fact that she's like me and loves to throw stuff when she's really mad and it's not pretty.  Hence, I am hiding in the dining room.

Last night when it got to be too much I gated myself in her playroom, put my headphones on and turned them up all the way and did week 2 day 2 of my running app.  Nothing like watching books fly into the room because she can't get in, it was hubby's turn to hide in the dining room.  Thankfully her tantrums don't last overly long (she's currently playing with stacking cups in the playroom) once she realizes she's not getting her way.

Week 2 day 2 was horrible...hahaha... I thought my lungs may explode because I had to run 2 minutes at a time plus the damned 15 second sprints... I keep waiting for my legs to give out or my lungs to burst.. in the end, I will confess, I felt a million times better... totally worth it.  I also do 3 30 second planks after running and when the hubby is home I get him to do it with me.  Let me tell you the change in running kinda made me want to puke while planking.  I'll take that as a sign that I worked as hard as it felt like I did.

I was super nervous giving up sugar since I LOVE LOVE LOVE goodies... cookies, cheesecake and diet coke..yum! Night before last I discovered a treat that I am newly obsessed with though.. sugar free cherry jello... I was actually scared to try sugar free anything.  I simply assumed that it would taste like garbage.. boy was I wrong.  Before you try it you should know that if you don't like luden's cough drops, don't waste your time... I could eat luden's cherry cough drops like candy and the sugar free cherry jello tastes just like them! I'm obsessed!

And on a side note I've discovered it's kiwi water for the win!